Just attempted to do a test for school; failed miserably! Even knowing that I failed, I know I still get credit for taking a test, and am no longer afraid of failing, because I already have! So, now it's time to go to work for a bit...and I'll come home, practice some more, and try to take another test. As long as I keep trying and keep trying to do better, I'll eventually succeed.
Eventually.
Friday, October 21, 2011
Thursday, October 20, 2011
One
So, today marks a new blog. A new beginning. A new night in my life.
In all actuality...nothing has changed. I'm still sitting on the couch in the same spot, computer on my lap, TV tuned to Jersey Shore. I'm sure my lover and I will have the same conversation tonight that we always have before we go to bed, and I'm sure that I'll wake up at 6:30 and get my son out of bed. My life is so static...so routine...so predictable...so boring. It's not the life I imagined myself living 2 years ago, and it's definitely not the life I imagined myself living 3 months ago. I don't want to be the boring married couple, sitting at home in front of the TV every night. I want to be out living life to the fullest, discovering new music, and exploring this beautiful state we live in. But that doesn't happen. I have a 3 month old. I go to school. My boyfriend goes to school. I have a part-time job. I have plenty of free time, believe it or not, but I choose to sit in my apartment and watch TV, sit on the computer, and spend plenty of time frivolously.
I should concentrate on school more. I should spend more of my time practicing on my machine. I've been better this week, doing some practice tests and trying to stay positive.
There's a blog I follow...Steno Nerd. She's so positive and uplifting. She's somewhat of an inspiration to me. Whenever I read about her successes in her speed building, it gives me hope that I'll be able to accomplish the same thing. As I'm writing this, I'm thinking of how I should really be on my machine, doing finger drills and making sure my fingers are limber and my mind is blank.
Speaking of blank minds...I'm ready to have a blank mind, in a dark room, with my eyes closed.
More to come...
But for now, I will leave you with some words of wisdom:
In all actuality...nothing has changed. I'm still sitting on the couch in the same spot, computer on my lap, TV tuned to Jersey Shore. I'm sure my lover and I will have the same conversation tonight that we always have before we go to bed, and I'm sure that I'll wake up at 6:30 and get my son out of bed. My life is so static...so routine...so predictable...so boring. It's not the life I imagined myself living 2 years ago, and it's definitely not the life I imagined myself living 3 months ago. I don't want to be the boring married couple, sitting at home in front of the TV every night. I want to be out living life to the fullest, discovering new music, and exploring this beautiful state we live in. But that doesn't happen. I have a 3 month old. I go to school. My boyfriend goes to school. I have a part-time job. I have plenty of free time, believe it or not, but I choose to sit in my apartment and watch TV, sit on the computer, and spend plenty of time frivolously.
I should concentrate on school more. I should spend more of my time practicing on my machine. I've been better this week, doing some practice tests and trying to stay positive.
There's a blog I follow...Steno Nerd. She's so positive and uplifting. She's somewhat of an inspiration to me. Whenever I read about her successes in her speed building, it gives me hope that I'll be able to accomplish the same thing. As I'm writing this, I'm thinking of how I should really be on my machine, doing finger drills and making sure my fingers are limber and my mind is blank.
Speaking of blank minds...I'm ready to have a blank mind, in a dark room, with my eyes closed.
More to come...
But for now, I will leave you with some words of wisdom:
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